dentist day :'C
I'm so scared this morning... My appt. is at 7 a.m. I have to start getting ready soon, when my father gets out of the bathroom he takes forever!
I'm so scared though, I never ever cry usually and everytime I think about this I well up with tears. I'm not only afraid of what they do but also the medicine they give to you. And I'm afraid of the pain afterwards... I hate being scared like this, I feel so weak! I hate this, I hate this, I fucking hate this!
3 root canals (1 of those teeth are broken and possibly one other)... And 4 extractions. I'm having my 12 year olds out because my mouth is so small I cant keep them clean... I agreed to this also because they have shifted so my bite doesn't line up comfortably. They weren't worth saving as they had huge fillings in them anyways.
I just dont want to do this.. And I wish my father would get out of the bathroom already. He knew last night or 3 hours ago that we needed to get ready for this. He pisses me off sometimes, but mostly I'm just taking my frustration out on him... I'll stop, I just want to make sure I get a shower before I go - otherwise I'll be really fucking pissed.
I really do hate this, I have phobia's of pills and mind altering meds because of him (DAD)... Its no wonder I'm so messed up sometimes.
Anyways this isn't about my dad, this is about my own fears. This just sucks and I dont want to go through this, but I have no choice - or I do have a choice and I guess this is what I'm choosing. "Oh I feel so empowered"... *sarcasmn*
I'm so scared though, I never ever cry usually and everytime I think about this I well up with tears. I'm not only afraid of what they do but also the medicine they give to you. And I'm afraid of the pain afterwards... I hate being scared like this, I feel so weak! I hate this, I hate this, I fucking hate this!
3 root canals (1 of those teeth are broken and possibly one other)... And 4 extractions. I'm having my 12 year olds out because my mouth is so small I cant keep them clean... I agreed to this also because they have shifted so my bite doesn't line up comfortably. They weren't worth saving as they had huge fillings in them anyways.
I just dont want to do this.. And I wish my father would get out of the bathroom already. He knew last night or 3 hours ago that we needed to get ready for this. He pisses me off sometimes, but mostly I'm just taking my frustration out on him... I'll stop, I just want to make sure I get a shower before I go - otherwise I'll be really fucking pissed.
I really do hate this, I have phobia's of pills and mind altering meds because of him (DAD)... Its no wonder I'm so messed up sometimes.
Anyways this isn't about my dad, this is about my own fears. This just sucks and I dont want to go through this, but I have no choice - or I do have a choice and I guess this is what I'm choosing. "Oh I feel so empowered"... *sarcasmn*