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i have shed many layers of myself today. i have grown up more in the past two months than i have in my entire life and its a lot to take in but its good. today, i really leanred how to let go. i realized that some things, no matter how good or perfect they seem, can not be made into what you want them to be and need to be let go. its crazy hard to let go of things that feel right, and growing up is by far the hardest thing i have encountered as of yet, but strangely enough, i feel better about myself. i dont really know who i am right now but thats good for me because it saves me from feeling like i have to fall into a certain category. as P.S. said, i am starting a blank page, to create myself and be what i want to be without giving too much or too little of myself away, but even though i am beginning a new page it is in the same book. the deepest parts of me will never change.

i have let some people down recently, some in small ways and some in very big ways, and it kills me. to everyone who has trusted me and relied on me and i have not come through, i am so sorry.

it truly is a bittersweet symphony, this life...