The Other Night...
I went to Swans house.
I only intended to stay for an hour.
There where quite a few people there, we were all laughing and having fun.
Singing and dancing, playing music and chatting.
Shana asked how long I was going to stay because she needed a ride home, I said I would leave when she was ready, well she was never ready and decided to stay the night.
So its about 4:30am and Swans like you can stay if you want, I said I was really tired. He said lets go to sleep..so we did.
So I felt bad the next day, it was kind of a numbness. I don't like being a sex object. I came home and just sat on my couch all day long. I hate sitting and doing nothing, but the weather didnt help. How am I supposed to feel upbeat when its pouring rain and trying to snow.
Well around 10:00 I decided to go to bed.
Didnt wake up till a quarter til 10 this morning and had to hustle to get to work on time and still look nice.
I feel better today, I went on a cleaning spree when I got home. Theres nothing like cleaning. It always makes me feel calm when I'm finished and everything is where it needs to be, nothings out of place.
Anyways, here goes my 50th attempt and not having sex again. I keep having relapses, I'll go like 6 - 7 months without even thinking about sex...its always when somebody else brings it up and I'm like hmmm...it wouldnt be so bad, never thinking of consequinces. Hope this round lasts a little longer.
I only intended to stay for an hour.
There where quite a few people there, we were all laughing and having fun.
Singing and dancing, playing music and chatting.
Shana asked how long I was going to stay because she needed a ride home, I said I would leave when she was ready, well she was never ready and decided to stay the night.
So its about 4:30am and Swans like you can stay if you want, I said I was really tired. He said lets go to sleep..so we did.
So I felt bad the next day, it was kind of a numbness. I don't like being a sex object. I came home and just sat on my couch all day long. I hate sitting and doing nothing, but the weather didnt help. How am I supposed to feel upbeat when its pouring rain and trying to snow.
Well around 10:00 I decided to go to bed.
Didnt wake up till a quarter til 10 this morning and had to hustle to get to work on time and still look nice.
I feel better today, I went on a cleaning spree when I got home. Theres nothing like cleaning. It always makes me feel calm when I'm finished and everything is where it needs to be, nothings out of place.
Anyways, here goes my 50th attempt and not having sex again. I keep having relapses, I'll go like 6 - 7 months without even thinking about sex...its always when somebody else brings it up and I'm like hmmm...it wouldnt be so bad, never thinking of consequinces. Hope this round lasts a little longer.