i know its been a while
I haven't had time to update this little journal of mine.
Perhapes i have nothing good to say about myself lately. I think mostly i just hate admiting feelings to myself. Once is said and done, the feelings are no longer just speculation. It is real. I dont want to admit it until i am fully ready to face it and just let it go.
My first encounter of this kind of feeling was when i lost my first balloon. I loved it so much! ( HAHA chinese parents don't like buying it for their kids cos its expensive and it don't last and in the end is just trash that lays around when i refuse to throw it away even if it was deflated and fading in color ) BUT this one time, the 1 our of a million times that i ask my parents to get it for me and they actually did. I didn't hold it tight enough or maybe too tight for awhile and just somehow let it slipped. That time my mom bought me and my brother one... so haha guess what i have to sit around and watch my brother playing around with HIS. AND Then i learned next time which was like 5 yrs later and i got my second balloon... I tied it around my arms... this time no matter how hard i tug and not tug, it won't fly. It is mine forever! or as long as i can still see the prints after it deflates. and then the third and last time i got a balloon, i took pictures with it, tied the knot tighter so the balloon deflates slower...
Moral of this story is: You love, lost and then love again. But you will do something different every time to try and make it a little better and make it last a little longer. I think that's my current view on love and relationships and friendships.
HAHA isn't it funnie that i relate balloons to love? I don't know i think is kinda true.
我很想說對你說
你是我的天使
everyone i loved and not loved craved my heart and shaped me. I am thankful for it. NOW all i can think of is the good times because i took snap shots of the good memories and not the bitter ones. THANKS!
Now time to live my dreams and make them reality.
1) Be even more comfortable with who i am, what i like and what i don't like.
2) Start my career by working biotech company
3) get into grad school in new york or denver or Cali for genetics counseling.
4) Settle down and start my life: travel, love, friends, family, try new things.
5) Keep my optimistic personality, but ALSO becoming more realistic.
6) Continue to believe in people and their good side.
7) Think before i act or speak, i need to put myself in others shoe more often.
8) Dream without boundaries, live without regrets, and love without hesitation.
Perhapes i have nothing good to say about myself lately. I think mostly i just hate admiting feelings to myself. Once is said and done, the feelings are no longer just speculation. It is real. I dont want to admit it until i am fully ready to face it and just let it go.
My first encounter of this kind of feeling was when i lost my first balloon. I loved it so much! ( HAHA chinese parents don't like buying it for their kids cos its expensive and it don't last and in the end is just trash that lays around when i refuse to throw it away even if it was deflated and fading in color ) BUT this one time, the 1 our of a million times that i ask my parents to get it for me and they actually did. I didn't hold it tight enough or maybe too tight for awhile and just somehow let it slipped. That time my mom bought me and my brother one... so haha guess what i have to sit around and watch my brother playing around with HIS. AND Then i learned next time which was like 5 yrs later and i got my second balloon... I tied it around my arms... this time no matter how hard i tug and not tug, it won't fly. It is mine forever! or as long as i can still see the prints after it deflates. and then the third and last time i got a balloon, i took pictures with it, tied the knot tighter so the balloon deflates slower...
Moral of this story is: You love, lost and then love again. But you will do something different every time to try and make it a little better and make it last a little longer. I think that's my current view on love and relationships and friendships.
HAHA isn't it funnie that i relate balloons to love? I don't know i think is kinda true.
我很想說對你說
你是我的天使
everyone i loved and not loved craved my heart and shaped me. I am thankful for it. NOW all i can think of is the good times because i took snap shots of the good memories and not the bitter ones. THANKS!
Now time to live my dreams and make them reality.
1) Be even more comfortable with who i am, what i like and what i don't like.
2) Start my career by working biotech company
3) get into grad school in new york or denver or Cali for genetics counseling.
4) Settle down and start my life: travel, love, friends, family, try new things.
5) Keep my optimistic personality, but ALSO becoming more realistic.
6) Continue to believe in people and their good side.
7) Think before i act or speak, i need to put myself in others shoe more often.
8) Dream without boundaries, live without regrets, and love without hesitation.