why do things get fucked up ?

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ok so this weekend so far .... interesting i guess ...i went to the hair dressers with leandra yesterday that was fun and before she came home on my bus .... i fell on my butt " gracefully " because my mom decided to heavily wax the floors ... so i changed my hair color ... its like a red purple ?? it looks better then it sounds .. then last night after that i went to the mall with brandon we talked and i helped him with shopping ... ill totally admit he makes me jelous ... he has this friend courtney bradley andits his bestfriend .. but they dont even hang out that much but im always with brandon and yet she still has brandons number one spot .... life has a funny way of paying you back ... then one of my favorite family members called me and lately shit has been wicked screwed up ive been yelled at twice and it was for sumthing wicked fucking gay .... its getting on my nerves ... i had told her all this stuff and when it comesdown to the point where i thought shed totally understand she doesnt ... she takes things to heart to much and it doesnt help the situation out ... and now i miss brittany ... * i love you * and if i could marry you i would <33 i miss you like ntohing ... and thats what i want for christmas ... i dont need money i dont need clothes i dont need anything except you by my side <33

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ok i started thinking and im not sure whats going on with some of my best friends ... one wants to hang out but doesnt take the time to call ? thats cool ... and then the next ... im not sure this one makes me angry sometimesn but makes me happy ... and the last one ... wow ... the last one i dont understand why they make me so jelous ... i dont have any thing to be jelous about but they make me so angry ... i love you brittany ... youv never done anything to upset me