i've been a terrible person
so lalalala, JUDDDD sucks. I liquid fasted sunday and it was GREAT (about 1000 cals). then I was going to just keep on doing that, but I took a multivitamin and got sick and had to eat something. My dry heaving woke my boyfriend up and he drove me to subway (my favorite place). So I had to eat. It's better to eat one meal and curb suspicion then to not eat and have him track how much I eat every day.
(WHICH IS ALL VERY STUPID AND TOTALLY ANNOYING. I WOULD HAVE TO STARVE MYSELF FOR 11 DAYS STRAIGHT IN ORDER TO GET OUT OF THE "OVER WEIGHT RANGE" ON THE BMI SCALE.)
So I decided to do JUDDDD that day 'cause I was going to go to the gym and work. Well, the gym was closed, even though it never closes, and I still forced myself to eat. That is a bad idea. If I hadn't I would have had 600 cals the whole day, but I made my min. for Judddd (2000 cals) and now, I feel like CRAP for it. Seriously. It wasn't the food, either. I ate a salad with chicken, then salmon and veggies and had a fruit smoothie. I don't ever want to eat again.
Which is my goal. To not ever eat again until I feel like it. I like drinking juice and rockstars and I even had a bowl of tomato soup for dinner sunday, but that's it. That's all I want to have.
I told my boyfriend, too. How sick I am of food and how I never want to eat again. He just laughed. He wants to cook me dinner tonight, and I might eat it, because that's a nice gesture, and it makes him happy. But I will not eat any more than 1 meal/day.
So yeah, judddd is a good diet, it taught me that I don't need food. It works, surely, but I just can't stand the Up Days.
oh i'm up 3 lbs for it. LAME.
(WHICH IS ALL VERY STUPID AND TOTALLY ANNOYING. I WOULD HAVE TO STARVE MYSELF FOR 11 DAYS STRAIGHT IN ORDER TO GET OUT OF THE "OVER WEIGHT RANGE" ON THE BMI SCALE.)
So I decided to do JUDDDD that day 'cause I was going to go to the gym and work. Well, the gym was closed, even though it never closes, and I still forced myself to eat. That is a bad idea. If I hadn't I would have had 600 cals the whole day, but I made my min. for Judddd (2000 cals) and now, I feel like CRAP for it. Seriously. It wasn't the food, either. I ate a salad with chicken, then salmon and veggies and had a fruit smoothie. I don't ever want to eat again.
Which is my goal. To not ever eat again until I feel like it. I like drinking juice and rockstars and I even had a bowl of tomato soup for dinner sunday, but that's it. That's all I want to have.
I told my boyfriend, too. How sick I am of food and how I never want to eat again. He just laughed. He wants to cook me dinner tonight, and I might eat it, because that's a nice gesture, and it makes him happy. But I will not eat any more than 1 meal/day.
So yeah, judddd is a good diet, it taught me that I don't need food. It works, surely, but I just can't stand the Up Days.
oh i'm up 3 lbs for it. LAME.