Shattered Love (Chapter 7)
Title: Shattered Love
Pairings: Yunjae & Yoosu
Genre: Angst, romance, drama
Rating: From PG to NC-17
Length 7/8
Summary: Things become slightly unstable in DBSK when Jaejoong asks for one night from Yunho.
Warnings: Mild cursing and a few rated scenes.
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It had been a week since the groups had gotten to Japan and they had decided that today was the day they were going to spend at a popular theme park…riding rollercoaster’s till they were sick and pigging out on junk food.
“Jaejoong, you looked flushed…” Siwon stated slyly as they walked by a small spot where water shot from the ground in short squirts.
“I do?” Jaejoong breathed, placing the back of his fingers against his cheek.
“Yeah, you should cool down.” He stated lightly, shifting in such a way so that Jaejoong had to move towards the water to avoid hitting him.
“Er…” Jaejoong shifted slightly, beginning to feel that Siwon was up to something.
“Let me help you…huh?” The younger boy stated, reaching out and placing his hand on Jaejoongs arm.
“No…I’m fine.” Jaejoong laughed slightly, beginning to understand what Siwon was doing.
“I’m just worried about you.” Siwon chuckled, slowly pushing Jaejoong towards the water.
Jaejoong jerked forward, a smile pulling at his face as he swung around and tried to push Siwon into the water.
“Ah! No you don’t!” Siwon laughed, grabbing both of Jaejoong's arms and forcing him back towards the water.
“Ya!” Jaejoong let out a desperate shout as he lunged forward and latched both arms around Siwon’s waist.
“Aw, come on Jaejoong, you know you want to get wet!” Siwon laughed, enjoying the feel of Jaejoong's small arms around his waist.
Jaejoong, feeling Siwon’s guard lower slightly, swung around and pushed Siwon into a stream of water shooting from a small hole in the ground.
However, he had failed to realize that Siwon might not let go of him.
The boys stumbled across the wet ground, yelling and laughing as they tried to force each other into the jets of cold water.
About two minutes into their tussle, Jaejoong tripped slightly and lost his blanance, causing him to fall into his back, Siwon tumbling down with him.
Somehow, in the confused struggle, Siwon ended up on top of a soaking wet Jaejoong.
A long moment passed, both boys staring into the other's eyes.
Siwon knew he was going to regret his next action, but he also knew that before long he wouldn’t be able to be close to Jaejoong.
“Siwon?” Jaejoong breathed, eyes growing larger as the younger boy slowly lowered himself closer.
“Let me have this one thing, Jae. Before Yunho gets you all to himself.” Siwon breathed, his lips hovering just over Jaejoong's. “Just a kiss to satisfy my curiosity.” He whispered before closing the small distance between them. A kiss with Jaejoong was something he never thought would happen...apparently he’d been wrong.
Jaejoong wasn’t sure how to respond. Siwon had always been very forward and never made attempts to hide his affection. But this kiss was something he hadn’t thought Siwon would attempt.
“Jaejoong!” Yunho shouted from the edge of the fountains. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
Jaejoong, hearing Yunho’s voice, quickly pushed Siwon away, a feeling of horror filling his gut. He had completely forgotten that Yunho was there.
By the time Siwon had moved off of Jaejoong, Yunho had stormed across the wet ground and was gruffly jerking his band mate off the ground.
“Are you an idiot?” Yunho hissed, shaking Jaejoong slightly.
“I’m sorry!” Jaejoong winced as Yunho jerked on his arm.
“Do you realize you are out in a public place, kissing another guy?” Yunho nearly shouted, anger boiling within his body. But it wasn’t just anger…it was jealousy. Yunho had thought that Jaejoong understood that he was willing…even wanted…to have a relationship with the older boy, yet here Jaejoong was kissing Siwon in the middle of a theme park.
Jaejoong didn’t know what to say, he felt sick…like his stomach was twisting into knots. He had been an idiot to even start fooling around with Siwon, but it wasn’t as if he had encouraged the kiss. Siwon had simply taken advantage of the situation.
“I’m sorry, Yunho…really!”
“Relax, Yunho.” Siwon quickly cut in, pulling Jaejoong away from Yunho. “You’re being too violent.” The younger boy snapped, anger filling his voice.
Yunho flinched back slightly as Siwon pulled Jaejoong away. It almost physically hurt to have Jae pulled away from him like that.
“Jaejoong…” Yunho breathed, his voice hardly rising over the sound of water smacking against the warm ground, “come with me.” He stated softly, extending his hand to the older boy.
Jaejoong felt anger growing in the pit of his stomach as he stared at Yunho. What right did Yunho have to try and control him? He could kiss whomever he wished, wherever and whenever he wished.
“Come on.” Yunho commanded, reaching out to grab Jaejoong's hand.
“No!” Jaejoong growled, pulling his hand away as he pushed stray locks of wet hair out of his narrow face. “Why does it matter to you if I kiss someone? You wouldn’t be jealous, would you?” Jaejoong questioned, his voice slightly accusing.
Yunho lost his voice for a moment, feeling slightly thrown off by Jaejoong's burst of anger. He’d never seen Jaejoong with a look of such intense displeasure in his eyes. “Why would I be jealous?” He didn’t know why in the world he was denying it, but he couldn’t bring himself to say it to Jaejoong's face.
“Why would you be jealous?” Jaejoong scoffed, a hateful look coming into his eyes, “that’s right…I forgot that you just play with people’s feelings when you get bored. Forgive me for reading too much into your actions.” He snapped sarcastically, shrugging out of Siwon’s hold and brushing past Yunho. He knew he was overreacting; knew that what he’d said to Yunho had been wrong and hurtful and he knew he was going to regret it later on. It was too late; the wrong words had been said and couldn’t be taken back.
aejoong didn’t bother to stop and say anything to the rest of the group, ignoring the look of pity Junsu shot his way. He could feel tears stinging his eyes and rolling down his face, mingling with the drops of water coating his cheeks.
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“Yoochun-ah…”
They had returned from the park three hours ago. Yunho hadn’t said a word to Jaejoong, though he had snapped at Junsu and had been in a generally bad mood since the incident at the fountains.
Jaejoong had been equally silent, only talking when Siwon really pressed him. The feeling of anger was slowly dying away and being replaced by his feeling of regret for talking to Yunho like that. It had been disrespectful to Yunho as a leader and down-right cruel to Yunho as a lover.
“What is it, Jaejoong?” Yoochun asked, looking up from the book he was reading.
“Uh, I was wondering if you and I could switch places tonight…so I can stay with Junsu.” Jaejoong muttered towards the floor, a blush creeping up his cheeks. All of Super Junior and DBSK knew that Jaejoong and Yunho had gotten into a fight; a fact that made Jaejoong feel slightly self-conscious.
Yoochun furrowed his brow, giving Jaejoong a perplexed look. It was obvious that the younger boy wanted to stay in the same room with Junsu, yet he also wanted to help his hyung out of an uncomfortable situation.
“Eh…sure.” He stated slowly, glancing towards Junsu, who had curled up next to him and fallen asleep.
A long pause filled the room, neither boy saying anything as they stared at Junsu's sleeping form.
“So, what happened?” Yoochun finally asked, turning his gaze back to Jaejoong.
“I was a complete and total idiot…that’s all.” Jaejoong breathed, turning to leave the room.
“Thanks for switching with me, Yoochun.” He called back before pulling open the door and shuffling out into the hall. He felt like crap now because he was so guilty and hurt by his actions earlier that day.
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“Junsu.” Yoochun breathed, reaching over and shaking his small lover lightly. “Wake-up, Boo.” He whispered, lowering his lips to plant a soft kiss on Junsu’s forehead.
“I’m not in the mood, Yoochun.” Junsu whined, kicking his legs slightly before turning onto his side and trying to get back to sleep.
Yoochun chuckled, watching a look of annoyance flicker across Junsu’s youthful face. “It’s not that you idiot.” Yoochun laughed, poking his lover in the ribs.
“Aish! Leave me alone, Park Yoochun.” Junsu snapped, rolling over and sleepily shoving Yoochun’s hand away. He had never been one that was happy when being awoken from a nap. What could he say? When one lives the life he does, you come to appreciate every minute of sleep you can grab.
“Okay, okay.” Yoochun raised his arms above his head in a gesture of surrender, a smile still pulling at his lips. “I’m sorry for waking you up.” He cooed as he pulled Junsu into his arms and planted a kiss on the boy's black hair.
“Let me go.” Junsu groaned, wiggling half-heartedly away from Yoochun.
“You know you love it when I hold you.” Yoochun purred lightly, resting his chin on Junsu’s shoulder. “Anyway, I told Jae-hyung he could stay with you tonight.” The older boy stated, slipping Junsu’s hand into his own larger one.
Junsu felt instantly awake at the sound of Jaejoong's name. The younger boy had been constantly worried about Jaejoong ever since that day he’d seen his hyung break down in the kitchen of their apartment.
“Is he okay? Did he say what happened? Did Yunho say something cruel? Did…” Junsu trailed off as Yoochun placed two fingers over the younger boy's lips.
“He said he was an idiot…that’s all I got out of him.” Yoochun supplied, chuckling slightly at Junsu’s naturally curious mind.
“Poor Jae-Hyung! I bet he’s just blaming himself for something Yunho said or did! I want to help him, but I don’t know how.” He groaned, tilting his head back to let it rest on Yoochun’s shoulder. “Ever since that confession in the dance hall, Jaejoong has been so…” Junsu trailed off, looking for the right word.
“He’s been depressed.” Yoochun supplied softly, a sigh following his words. “I feel bad for him too…but there’s nothing we can do for him at the moment."
Junsu echoed Yoochun's sigh with one of his own, letting his body relax against Yoochun for a moment before he wiggled away and stood up. “Then you had better get anything you’re going to need.” Junsu stated, gesturing towards Yoochun’s things.
“Get my things? Is that all I get for my act of self-sacrifice?” Yoochun asked, a dissatisfied look whispering across his face.
The corners of Junsu’s lips twitched upwards as he tried not to smile at Yoochun’s hinting. “So you give expecting a reward?” He questioned, eyebrows rising slightly. “I thought you were better than that.”
“Ya!” Yoochun laughed slightly, getting up from the bed and pulling Junsu into his arms, “don’t I always reward you?” He questioned, bringing his face within half-an-inch of his lover's.
Junsu became slightly flustered as Yoochun moved closer, the words getting stuck in his suddenly dry throat. It was true, Yoochun always doted on him by giving whatever he wanted…most of the time.
“You reward me because I’m so cute.” He shot back, finally finding his voice.
“Ha…so glad to see that your ego hasn’t become too big with everyone saying how cute you are. Ah, but you know what they say…Love is blind.” Yoochun shot back easily, a smirk pulling at his lips.
“Ya!” Junsu shouted, his voice edging into his dolphin noise as he punched Yoochun’s shoulder.
"Just kidding, Boo.” Yoochun quickly apologized, sneaking in to place a quick kiss on Junsu’s soft lips before he dashed away to avoid another smack.
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Dead silence.
Stifling silence.
“Jaejoong…please say something.” Junsu breathed, shattering the silence that had fallen over the room the moment Jaejoong had stepped into it.
He had tried not to say anything becuase he wanted Jaejoong to initiate any conversation about his fight with Yunho. However, Jaejoong had hardly said a word to Junsu ever since he’d set foot in the room.
It had only made things worse when Jaejoong and flopped down onto a bed and commenced to stare blankly at the ceiling. The younger boy couldn’t stand to see the eldest member of DBSK sinking into his private depression.
“What is there to say?” Jaejoong breathed, his voice quivering slightly, betraying the unshed tears in his eyes, “Yunho and I had started to get closer…he even seemed to be reciprocating my feelings. Then I had to go and open my big mouth.” He breathed, trying to control his voice.
“Jaejoong-hyung…” Junsu hesitated, unsure of how to respond to Jaejoong, “if you’re really sorry for what you said, then just apologize. Yunho has always been very understanding when it comes to us being idiots.” The younger boy stated quickly, hoping to bring Jaejoong out of his depression.
“I’m sorry, Junsu…but could we just go to bed?” Jaejoong questioned, turning his face away to hide the tear trickling down his cheek.
“Sure, Hyung.” Junsu whispered, climbing into his bed and clicking off the light.
Pairings: Yunjae & Yoosu
Genre: Angst, romance, drama
Rating: From PG to NC-17
Length 7/8
Summary: Things become slightly unstable in DBSK when Jaejoong asks for one night from Yunho.
Warnings: Mild cursing and a few rated scenes.
Chapters: ||1|| _||2|| _||3|| _||4||
_||5|| _||6||
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It had been a week since the groups had gotten to Japan and they had decided that today was the day they were going to spend at a popular theme park…riding rollercoaster’s till they were sick and pigging out on junk food.
“Jaejoong, you looked flushed…” Siwon stated slyly as they walked by a small spot where water shot from the ground in short squirts.
“I do?” Jaejoong breathed, placing the back of his fingers against his cheek.
“Yeah, you should cool down.” He stated lightly, shifting in such a way so that Jaejoong had to move towards the water to avoid hitting him.
“Er…” Jaejoong shifted slightly, beginning to feel that Siwon was up to something.
“Let me help you…huh?” The younger boy stated, reaching out and placing his hand on Jaejoongs arm.
“No…I’m fine.” Jaejoong laughed slightly, beginning to understand what Siwon was doing.
“I’m just worried about you.” Siwon chuckled, slowly pushing Jaejoong towards the water.
Jaejoong jerked forward, a smile pulling at his face as he swung around and tried to push Siwon into the water.
“Ah! No you don’t!” Siwon laughed, grabbing both of Jaejoong's arms and forcing him back towards the water.
“Ya!” Jaejoong let out a desperate shout as he lunged forward and latched both arms around Siwon’s waist.
“Aw, come on Jaejoong, you know you want to get wet!” Siwon laughed, enjoying the feel of Jaejoong's small arms around his waist.
Jaejoong, feeling Siwon’s guard lower slightly, swung around and pushed Siwon into a stream of water shooting from a small hole in the ground.
However, he had failed to realize that Siwon might not let go of him.
The boys stumbled across the wet ground, yelling and laughing as they tried to force each other into the jets of cold water.
About two minutes into their tussle, Jaejoong tripped slightly and lost his blanance, causing him to fall into his back, Siwon tumbling down with him.
Somehow, in the confused struggle, Siwon ended up on top of a soaking wet Jaejoong.
A long moment passed, both boys staring into the other's eyes.
Siwon knew he was going to regret his next action, but he also knew that before long he wouldn’t be able to be close to Jaejoong.
“Siwon?” Jaejoong breathed, eyes growing larger as the younger boy slowly lowered himself closer.
“Let me have this one thing, Jae. Before Yunho gets you all to himself.” Siwon breathed, his lips hovering just over Jaejoong's. “Just a kiss to satisfy my curiosity.” He whispered before closing the small distance between them. A kiss with Jaejoong was something he never thought would happen...apparently he’d been wrong.
Jaejoong wasn’t sure how to respond. Siwon had always been very forward and never made attempts to hide his affection. But this kiss was something he hadn’t thought Siwon would attempt.
“Jaejoong!” Yunho shouted from the edge of the fountains. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
Jaejoong, hearing Yunho’s voice, quickly pushed Siwon away, a feeling of horror filling his gut. He had completely forgotten that Yunho was there.
By the time Siwon had moved off of Jaejoong, Yunho had stormed across the wet ground and was gruffly jerking his band mate off the ground.
“Are you an idiot?” Yunho hissed, shaking Jaejoong slightly.
“I’m sorry!” Jaejoong winced as Yunho jerked on his arm.
“Do you realize you are out in a public place, kissing another guy?” Yunho nearly shouted, anger boiling within his body. But it wasn’t just anger…it was jealousy. Yunho had thought that Jaejoong understood that he was willing…even wanted…to have a relationship with the older boy, yet here Jaejoong was kissing Siwon in the middle of a theme park.
Jaejoong didn’t know what to say, he felt sick…like his stomach was twisting into knots. He had been an idiot to even start fooling around with Siwon, but it wasn’t as if he had encouraged the kiss. Siwon had simply taken advantage of the situation.
“I’m sorry, Yunho…really!”
“Relax, Yunho.” Siwon quickly cut in, pulling Jaejoong away from Yunho. “You’re being too violent.” The younger boy snapped, anger filling his voice.
Yunho flinched back slightly as Siwon pulled Jaejoong away. It almost physically hurt to have Jae pulled away from him like that.
“Jaejoong…” Yunho breathed, his voice hardly rising over the sound of water smacking against the warm ground, “come with me.” He stated softly, extending his hand to the older boy.
Jaejoong felt anger growing in the pit of his stomach as he stared at Yunho. What right did Yunho have to try and control him? He could kiss whomever he wished, wherever and whenever he wished.
“Come on.” Yunho commanded, reaching out to grab Jaejoong's hand.
“No!” Jaejoong growled, pulling his hand away as he pushed stray locks of wet hair out of his narrow face. “Why does it matter to you if I kiss someone? You wouldn’t be jealous, would you?” Jaejoong questioned, his voice slightly accusing.
Yunho lost his voice for a moment, feeling slightly thrown off by Jaejoong's burst of anger. He’d never seen Jaejoong with a look of such intense displeasure in his eyes. “Why would I be jealous?” He didn’t know why in the world he was denying it, but he couldn’t bring himself to say it to Jaejoong's face.
“Why would you be jealous?” Jaejoong scoffed, a hateful look coming into his eyes, “that’s right…I forgot that you just play with people’s feelings when you get bored. Forgive me for reading too much into your actions.” He snapped sarcastically, shrugging out of Siwon’s hold and brushing past Yunho. He knew he was overreacting; knew that what he’d said to Yunho had been wrong and hurtful and he knew he was going to regret it later on. It was too late; the wrong words had been said and couldn’t be taken back.
aejoong didn’t bother to stop and say anything to the rest of the group, ignoring the look of pity Junsu shot his way. He could feel tears stinging his eyes and rolling down his face, mingling with the drops of water coating his cheeks.
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“Yoochun-ah…”
They had returned from the park three hours ago. Yunho hadn’t said a word to Jaejoong, though he had snapped at Junsu and had been in a generally bad mood since the incident at the fountains.
Jaejoong had been equally silent, only talking when Siwon really pressed him. The feeling of anger was slowly dying away and being replaced by his feeling of regret for talking to Yunho like that. It had been disrespectful to Yunho as a leader and down-right cruel to Yunho as a lover.
“What is it, Jaejoong?” Yoochun asked, looking up from the book he was reading.
“Uh, I was wondering if you and I could switch places tonight…so I can stay with Junsu.” Jaejoong muttered towards the floor, a blush creeping up his cheeks. All of Super Junior and DBSK knew that Jaejoong and Yunho had gotten into a fight; a fact that made Jaejoong feel slightly self-conscious.
Yoochun furrowed his brow, giving Jaejoong a perplexed look. It was obvious that the younger boy wanted to stay in the same room with Junsu, yet he also wanted to help his hyung out of an uncomfortable situation.
“Eh…sure.” He stated slowly, glancing towards Junsu, who had curled up next to him and fallen asleep.
A long pause filled the room, neither boy saying anything as they stared at Junsu's sleeping form.
“So, what happened?” Yoochun finally asked, turning his gaze back to Jaejoong.
“I was a complete and total idiot…that’s all.” Jaejoong breathed, turning to leave the room.
“Thanks for switching with me, Yoochun.” He called back before pulling open the door and shuffling out into the hall. He felt like crap now because he was so guilty and hurt by his actions earlier that day.
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“Junsu.” Yoochun breathed, reaching over and shaking his small lover lightly. “Wake-up, Boo.” He whispered, lowering his lips to plant a soft kiss on Junsu’s forehead.
“I’m not in the mood, Yoochun.” Junsu whined, kicking his legs slightly before turning onto his side and trying to get back to sleep.
Yoochun chuckled, watching a look of annoyance flicker across Junsu’s youthful face. “It’s not that you idiot.” Yoochun laughed, poking his lover in the ribs.
“Aish! Leave me alone, Park Yoochun.” Junsu snapped, rolling over and sleepily shoving Yoochun’s hand away. He had never been one that was happy when being awoken from a nap. What could he say? When one lives the life he does, you come to appreciate every minute of sleep you can grab.
“Okay, okay.” Yoochun raised his arms above his head in a gesture of surrender, a smile still pulling at his lips. “I’m sorry for waking you up.” He cooed as he pulled Junsu into his arms and planted a kiss on the boy's black hair.
“Let me go.” Junsu groaned, wiggling half-heartedly away from Yoochun.
“You know you love it when I hold you.” Yoochun purred lightly, resting his chin on Junsu’s shoulder. “Anyway, I told Jae-hyung he could stay with you tonight.” The older boy stated, slipping Junsu’s hand into his own larger one.
Junsu felt instantly awake at the sound of Jaejoong's name. The younger boy had been constantly worried about Jaejoong ever since that day he’d seen his hyung break down in the kitchen of their apartment.
“Is he okay? Did he say what happened? Did Yunho say something cruel? Did…” Junsu trailed off as Yoochun placed two fingers over the younger boy's lips.
“He said he was an idiot…that’s all I got out of him.” Yoochun supplied, chuckling slightly at Junsu’s naturally curious mind.
“Poor Jae-Hyung! I bet he’s just blaming himself for something Yunho said or did! I want to help him, but I don’t know how.” He groaned, tilting his head back to let it rest on Yoochun’s shoulder. “Ever since that confession in the dance hall, Jaejoong has been so…” Junsu trailed off, looking for the right word.
“He’s been depressed.” Yoochun supplied softly, a sigh following his words. “I feel bad for him too…but there’s nothing we can do for him at the moment."
Junsu echoed Yoochun's sigh with one of his own, letting his body relax against Yoochun for a moment before he wiggled away and stood up. “Then you had better get anything you’re going to need.” Junsu stated, gesturing towards Yoochun’s things.
“Get my things? Is that all I get for my act of self-sacrifice?” Yoochun asked, a dissatisfied look whispering across his face.
The corners of Junsu’s lips twitched upwards as he tried not to smile at Yoochun’s hinting. “So you give expecting a reward?” He questioned, eyebrows rising slightly. “I thought you were better than that.”
“Ya!” Yoochun laughed slightly, getting up from the bed and pulling Junsu into his arms, “don’t I always reward you?” He questioned, bringing his face within half-an-inch of his lover's.
Junsu became slightly flustered as Yoochun moved closer, the words getting stuck in his suddenly dry throat. It was true, Yoochun always doted on him by giving whatever he wanted…most of the time.
“You reward me because I’m so cute.” He shot back, finally finding his voice.
“Ha…so glad to see that your ego hasn’t become too big with everyone saying how cute you are. Ah, but you know what they say…Love is blind.” Yoochun shot back easily, a smirk pulling at his lips.
“Ya!” Junsu shouted, his voice edging into his dolphin noise as he punched Yoochun’s shoulder.
"Just kidding, Boo.” Yoochun quickly apologized, sneaking in to place a quick kiss on Junsu’s soft lips before he dashed away to avoid another smack.
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Dead silence.
Stifling silence.
“Jaejoong…please say something.” Junsu breathed, shattering the silence that had fallen over the room the moment Jaejoong had stepped into it.
He had tried not to say anything becuase he wanted Jaejoong to initiate any conversation about his fight with Yunho. However, Jaejoong had hardly said a word to Junsu ever since he’d set foot in the room.
It had only made things worse when Jaejoong and flopped down onto a bed and commenced to stare blankly at the ceiling. The younger boy couldn’t stand to see the eldest member of DBSK sinking into his private depression.
“What is there to say?” Jaejoong breathed, his voice quivering slightly, betraying the unshed tears in his eyes, “Yunho and I had started to get closer…he even seemed to be reciprocating my feelings. Then I had to go and open my big mouth.” He breathed, trying to control his voice.
“Jaejoong-hyung…” Junsu hesitated, unsure of how to respond to Jaejoong, “if you’re really sorry for what you said, then just apologize. Yunho has always been very understanding when it comes to us being idiots.” The younger boy stated quickly, hoping to bring Jaejoong out of his depression.
“I’m sorry, Junsu…but could we just go to bed?” Jaejoong questioned, turning his face away to hide the tear trickling down his cheek.
“Sure, Hyung.” Junsu whispered, climbing into his bed and clicking off the light.