“City life is millions of people being lonesome together.”
Day one of being completely alone here. My family left yesterday night and it was utterly depressing. We spent the day together and then ended up just dropping them off in front of the airport. I couldn't wait with them or anything. But my aunt gets me crying before we even say our good-byes. Bawling by the time we get to the airport, and my mother is sniffling and stuff too. We got out of the car and hugged each other. Then I hugged my father, then my brother... For a couple minutes. My mother and I were sobbing and my brother and father were sniffling. They might deny it, but I knew. I KNEW. I saw my brother wiping his eyes and looking away.
So that was probably one of the most depressing moments of my life. I had to watch them walk off after that and we sort of followed them in the car as we were driving away. Purely out of coincidence. I stayed at my aunt and uncle's until I was calm enough. Then I went back and kind of wandered around the dorm a little. Then slept.
I woke up with giant shadows and puffy eyes so I decided to wear my glasses today. My room mate and I wandered down the beach to the Okinawan festival. My family is from Okinawa so I was like "Heeey. Heeeeeey." And decided to head that way. We bought little bags and some traditional food. Talked to a friend of my aunt's... And then we left. Started working on the bus routes practicing and stuff. Went to Ala Moana and then... Some place... Where there was a Best Buy. She bought the first season of One Piece and the boxset of Pretear. I didn't influence her, I swear. XD I bought the Legally Blonde musical soundtrack. The only thing I will probably buy myself for the rest of my life. Well, that isn't school related.
Then we came back and watched the first One Piece thing while also munching some lunch. Then our Dvd player got stuck and we jabbed at it with a screwdriver. Naturally, that wasn't the BEST idea. We're smart college students. So we broke it, but got the Dvd back so that's all good. Then we split to our computers... She finished watching One Piece while I roamed around the internet. Then we made dinner again and roamed the internet.
Tomorrow is supposed to be more beach stuff with my aunt, uncle, room mate, and CJ... We'll be a big happy group. Or something. It'll be strange. Then Tuesday school starts and I have to get all the way up to the Windward campus. Luckily I don't have to be there until three something. So, I'll probably head up there early around noon or one, depending on what time seems best to avoid traffic. I'll figure out how to get up there and then wander the campus for a little bit. It'll be fun. A little lonely, but fun. My room mate has a class up there at ten, but then she has to come back down to the downtown campus. I only have one class on Tuesday and it is a computer course. How difficult, I don't think I can handle it. Ha.
So, I miss home, I miss my friends, I miss my family... I miss my room. ; __ ; But I just try to think about it as a long camp. Because this will never be my home, I will always belong in California. It would be so much easier if my family was just a day drive away or something instead of a flight across the ocean. The loneliness wouldn't be so bad and I could visit my room from time to time instead of just twice a year. I hope I can make some "friends" or acquaintances to talk to and stuff. Keeping busy will help me not to think too much. And then, before I know it I'll be home in my own comfortable bed.
I'm saaaaaaad. I miss home. But school has yet to start, and this has been my dream since I was twelve... So I'm going to have to push through it. Good luck self!
Now I am going to sleep... Even though it is only eleven.
So that was probably one of the most depressing moments of my life. I had to watch them walk off after that and we sort of followed them in the car as we were driving away. Purely out of coincidence. I stayed at my aunt and uncle's until I was calm enough. Then I went back and kind of wandered around the dorm a little. Then slept.
I woke up with giant shadows and puffy eyes so I decided to wear my glasses today. My room mate and I wandered down the beach to the Okinawan festival. My family is from Okinawa so I was like "Heeey. Heeeeeey." And decided to head that way. We bought little bags and some traditional food. Talked to a friend of my aunt's... And then we left. Started working on the bus routes practicing and stuff. Went to Ala Moana and then... Some place... Where there was a Best Buy. She bought the first season of One Piece and the boxset of Pretear. I didn't influence her, I swear. XD I bought the Legally Blonde musical soundtrack. The only thing I will probably buy myself for the rest of my life. Well, that isn't school related.
Then we came back and watched the first One Piece thing while also munching some lunch. Then our Dvd player got stuck and we jabbed at it with a screwdriver. Naturally, that wasn't the BEST idea. We're smart college students. So we broke it, but got the Dvd back so that's all good. Then we split to our computers... She finished watching One Piece while I roamed around the internet. Then we made dinner again and roamed the internet.
Tomorrow is supposed to be more beach stuff with my aunt, uncle, room mate, and CJ... We'll be a big happy group. Or something. It'll be strange. Then Tuesday school starts and I have to get all the way up to the Windward campus. Luckily I don't have to be there until three something. So, I'll probably head up there early around noon or one, depending on what time seems best to avoid traffic. I'll figure out how to get up there and then wander the campus for a little bit. It'll be fun. A little lonely, but fun. My room mate has a class up there at ten, but then she has to come back down to the downtown campus. I only have one class on Tuesday and it is a computer course. How difficult, I don't think I can handle it. Ha.
So, I miss home, I miss my friends, I miss my family... I miss my room. ; __ ; But I just try to think about it as a long camp. Because this will never be my home, I will always belong in California. It would be so much easier if my family was just a day drive away or something instead of a flight across the ocean. The loneliness wouldn't be so bad and I could visit my room from time to time instead of just twice a year. I hope I can make some "friends" or acquaintances to talk to and stuff. Keeping busy will help me not to think too much. And then, before I know it I'll be home in my own comfortable bed.
I'm saaaaaaad. I miss home. But school has yet to start, and this has been my dream since I was twelve... So I'm going to have to push through it. Good luck self!
Now I am going to sleep... Even though it is only eleven.