I HATE doctors.
Yesterday sucked monkey balls. I don't ever want to see another doctor again, like that will ever happen. He's not a hundred percent sure to what is going on, but all evidence points in the direction that his assumption was right in the first place. After 2 months, the size has increased form 4in. to 5in., not a good thing. I've been planning to get away from all the doctors during August, but my pappaw said I couldn't stay with him, being unsure of what's going to happen to me. Now my parents are talking about me not even going on vacation at all. I sooo wanted to get away from all the doctors. The best part is that they are talking about openning me up. It's growing proved it was abnormal just like me. The doctor says he wants to take it out as soon as possible because it's chance of being some rare tumer thing, that happens to girls my age, has greatly increased. That and the chance of having to do chemo. That risk is even higher because of the history of cancer in the family. The worst part maybe that I've been trying to ignore it, but it keep forcing itself into my mind. Its finally starting to sink in. I haven't allowed myself to cry, but I not going to cry till after the MRI on thursday. I just want to crawl up into a bawl and die already. School may turn out to be interesting this year. Only one knows and He's not telling me.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I still want YOU to know who I am
Everyone that is born is dying,
I just may be dying at a faster rate.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I still want YOU to know who I am
Everyone that is born is dying,
I just may be dying at a faster rate.