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this is probably going to be one of my most unorganized and longest entries ever but i just feel like getting some things off my chest. well life seems to be slowly creeping by as has been for close to a year now. things are finally starting to calm down between my dad and me, im starting to talk to him a little bit more lately although i still have some major major issues with him that still need to be resolved but i believe there is atleast a miniscule chance that me and him might be able to co-exist although it will never be like most fathers and sons. we've talked more in the past month than we had in the whole year of 04. i believe he's starting to realize that he did screw up on the way he acted towards me over the whole ordeal. junior year is also starting to get into full swing again after being inturpted for a total of 6 days between the duel bitches Hurricanes Katrina and Rita. weve almost payed off my class ring which i should be getting in December and im hoping to see Rachael there, its been atleast 4 months since ive seen her and that is kind of weird being seperated from your best friend for that long has a really weird effect on you like in a way i feel its kind of good, because its given me time to finally get over her which everyone knows how hard that was for me and im finally moving on but its still really hard becasue she still probably the best friend i have, she knows more about me than anyone else does and i feel like i can trust her more than anyone else i know (no offence anyone) im just really hopin to see her soon. Allen and I's friendship is also growing more this year. we get along really well together because we both have the same interests which is a first in a long time for me to have a guy friend who actually likes the same things i do. Scott nor Fred ever had any interest in baseball at all but Allen and I have played along side each other on the high school team since 9th grade and are hoping we can pull this years team together and win district for the first time ever, i have a lot of faith in the team this year we just have to learn to play together and to just make everyone aorund us better. we have to the talent to do it plus i really believe with the group we have we can do it. Derek, Chris, Shane, Tyler, Allen, Caleb, Michael, and I all have the attitude that the team has always lacked, the attitude that shows we actually think we have a shot at winning this year. we may have lost a lot from last years team but with the exception of Mike all we really lost was bad attitude, me and coach ithink are starting to co-exist again finally after our little arguement last couple of weeks about me not supposedly trying hard enough. I just really do havea gut feeling about this year, something big is going to happen. during recess today coach had sent Allen and I out to the field's storage room to get the painter and paint can while we were out there we walked onto the field for the first time since the day before Mike died, it was really surreal. there was like an eery calm to the field and just out of no where a dove flew over the field it was just so weird almost like Mike was telling us, the team was ours to lead now after. i just know we're going to be good this year we have an angel in our outfield now. well youth group has also started up again this year should be another good one just a little different in the sence that with Nick, Richard, and Joey being so active in DYB i think i need to step up a little more this year and kind of take the "senior member" type status to help out a little more it shouldnt be too too hard. we have a really young group this year we have 14 high schoolers i belive to like 20 something junior high kids but the high school group is a lot closer nit than we have in the past or atleast in my opinion it is. im just hoping that our group can grow and be even closer nit than we already are, i mean 3 of my closest friends are in the youth group with me. im already anxious for hte meeting to get here and its only monday. we have World Youth Day coming up soon, that is going to be a lot of fun i think although Joey Nick and Richard are probably all going to be workign something so yea....i need to find atleast one other person to hang around with in our group lol. we also have the bonfire comign up too Richard and I built the pile for it saturday its really big it took us about 20 minutes to get it set up. just hoping we dont have a repeat of last years where josh broke his leg among other things too. im also hard on the prowl trying to figure out who i want to ask to prom this year, i know its kind of early to thing about that but the thng is i dont want to wait to long to ask anyone, that would seriously suck to go to prom without a date. i mean i have 2 people in mind that i wouldnt mind asking only thing is one of them i dont really know that well, but form ive seen she seems really sweet, adn the other girl ive been friends with for like ever but i dont really know if i should ask her either plus, i think someone is trying to set her up with someone already.....I NEED HELP DECIDEING.....so much on my mind right now i just dont know where to end with anything. life really is a crazy thing....just when you think you have things figured out...something changes.........................