.....ahh more to update, i think
It's only Tuesday Nite....i'm very bored but i guess that is just life for right now!
What more can i update about....hmm well there's really nothing more to mention, life is life..love is great and wonderful...i'm happy and that's all that counts right??
Work sucks like always but hell the money is good and that's all i really care about!!
Well i go tomorrow for my MRI on my knee..which should be lovely fun * NOT * haha i also have to go to the orthodontist and hopefully get my braces off, if i am lucky!!
Okay it's like 1:22 in the morning and i'm awake... there is alot going through my mind at this point and time,i can no longer sleep and i dont know why. Alot has happened in the past 3 days, it's going to be a long rough week cause i've had 2 family members pass away within 2 and 1/2 hours of each other... another re-cap of the car wrecks from jess - to - rickie - to -carrie ... i just dont know anymore ;; i'm not the type to be scared but for some reason there is something holding on to my heart and it's making me scared i dont know what in the hell it is but it's something that is keeping me from opening up to people like i used to. I feel as if i'm not the same person who used to give advice to all my friends, i feel as if i am slipping away from them all, that i'm worthless and helpless..dont ask me why i feel this way because i just do;; i guess it's a feeling that we all have once in our life or another... i just honestly couldnt tell anyone what is going on... I worry about my boyfriend when he's at work yet i know he says i shouldnt but i cant help it... it's just like i had a bad dream about him getting killed but some how or another he tells me that if it happens it happens... made me cry but he was right ... i just dont want that to happen though ;; although to him he loves what he does and i guess i will just have to act like i enjoy him being happy....
Enough of an update for now....
I Love You Dustin * You never cease to amaze me, there's just something about the way we are when we're together...everything is always perfect. Every little thing that you do baby i'm amazed by YOU **
Here's a Poem that I wrote :
Letter From Heaven
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writting this from Heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here there's no more tears of sadness; Here is eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon, and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me and said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do to help the mortal man."
God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on his list was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you...in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth and all the loving years.
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,though my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and in pain;
Then you can say to God at night..."My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented... that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way to go.
When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go...from that body to be free,
Remember you're not going...you're coming home to me.