Aloha BABEH!
Due to circumstances like the lack of an underscore, I find myself posting here once again. But what makes it interesting is that I'm typing on a cellphone. It ain't easy but it is quite an experience. Thank goodness for wifi. I am able to browse (albeit slowly and with so much limitations) away from the excruciatingly painful PC. You see... My chair is really uncomfortable. I have to squat/sit on my heels or on my calves to get the right elevation. That is until discomfort kicks in. : <
I am currenty lying down and suffering the tiny keys and lack of music on my second hand n9500. You just can't have everything it seems. He he he.
I always did have a fancy for second hand phones. The idea of buying my own slightly scares me. XD
How is everyone these days?
I can't really say I'm okay because I'm not. Never will be. Especially in this environment I'm in. But somehow I'm still alive. (Cookie points to who can tell where I got that line from ;D) So that should be good enough for now right?
I haven't been the most activeor easily seen person these days. Partly my fault. mostly of circumstance: I am often reminded of a 'expensive mistake' I've done in the past and thus am sort of punished for it. Then again even before this all happened, I have always been in a guilded cage. Except that now, I have become more aware of what I feel in favor against the 'what I ought to feel' scenario. Whenever I look back, I then realize how unhappy Ihad been.
I am still unhappy now admittedly. But this time I feel lighter. I stillbear unsettled scores and a lot of still bleeding wounds. I don't know if I'll really getout ofhere. ATM its really next to impossible
At least this time around, I'm more honest--kinder even, to myself. Deities know just how much I've neglected myself in favor of others for so long. Sometimes it Doesn't pay to be virtuous; you only come off stupid.
I am currenty lying down and suffering the tiny keys and lack of music on my second hand n9500. You just can't have everything it seems. He he he.
I always did have a fancy for second hand phones. The idea of buying my own slightly scares me. XD
How is everyone these days?
I can't really say I'm okay because I'm not. Never will be. Especially in this environment I'm in. But somehow I'm still alive. (Cookie points to who can tell where I got that line from ;D) So that should be good enough for now right?
I haven't been the most activeor easily seen person these days. Partly my fault. mostly of circumstance: I am often reminded of a 'expensive mistake' I've done in the past and thus am sort of punished for it. Then again even before this all happened, I have always been in a guilded cage. Except that now, I have become more aware of what I feel in favor against the 'what I ought to feel' scenario. Whenever I look back, I then realize how unhappy Ihad been.
I am still unhappy now admittedly. But this time I feel lighter. I stillbear unsettled scores and a lot of still bleeding wounds. I don't know if I'll really getout ofhere. ATM its really next to impossible
At least this time around, I'm more honest--kinder even, to myself. Deities know just how much I've neglected myself in favor of others for so long. Sometimes it Doesn't pay to be virtuous; you only come off stupid.