Feels nice. Feels Great. And its free.
My thoughts:
There is nothing wrong with Mary Sues or Gary Stus. I have come across rather lovable ones as a matter of fact.
I have a grand and great number of these kinds of people in my stories. They're my cliches and molds. The usual kinds of guys and gals I often come up with... IMO, story makers have one. Like the usual style of stories, perspectives and techniques. It's a signature kind of thing.
Abe no Seimei from the famed Onmyouji movies was a very adorable Gary Stu'sh guy. I liked him. For a brief time I had a big school girl crush on him. ^^;
I just can't stand those I find really overdone.
___
All characters that have been done are part of the storymaker's psyche. They are manifestations of the storymaker's personality in said fragments given names and such. Indirect self-inserts of some kind. But... there is a kind of self-insert that I dare say is just plain annoying.
___
Tragedy is relative and true but...There is only so much that one can take. Coincidence cannot happen so many times or it gets really fucked up. It no longer comes as coincidence that way. It's called planned out or total inability to foresee and avoid considering the so many times stuff have happened already...
Stupid as I may find it... There are just some people who are destined for lives that are filled with drama.
But please, let us not try and do our best to contest the exagerratedly mushy stuff we find on TV.
And no, Ms. Math Teacher, I don't want more problem sets...
One can justify that we all have problems and stuff like that. Woe is me. Self-pity 101 but you know what? You're just a speck in the universe. What's the big fuss over making such a big issue over that? There are hundreds and thousands of people starving and all you can think of is make up and other kinds of shit. But ofcourse I can understand if you fuss over what is major and important to you.
And oh yeah... What you feel and think is important may not be important to everybody else. So it's all about relativity and stuff. But seriously... if it's a matter of life and death, oh well.
___
Characters are created for a purpose. IMO, if they have run out of purpose or are no longer needed, I would rather send them off to a lovely plane of existence or get rid of them completely... There is no use in keeping them around standing useless and pretty if they have no more reason to be.
Yes, they are still parts of me.
___
I'm moving on. Trying my best to be a better me.
But I don't feel the need to show or point it out because... I don't want to.
I'm lazy and besides, if you don't believe me... That's your perogative now.
But deep inside me, I know I have changed. Somethings... have come and gone. Major stuff.
Scars, new wounds... Stuff lingering and pinching me in the ass like stings and shit. Yeah. W00t.
___
No, it's not bullshit to do your research when you write.
As a writer you are accountable to your readers.
Your research serves as your foundation to your stories.
A strong, stable one.
Without it... You are floating on mere presumptions and lies.
I know it's fiction but goodness gracious... I don't think... It's right to just say I don't need to and shit like that because it's not real and all...
I don't know. It just doesn't work on me. That kind of logic just doesn't sound right to me.
It's just plain wrong...
___
Say I lack imagination and all. Okay. That's what you say.
But when you make descriptions... You drown people in the place.
When you write you narrate, you describe and bring people to the place.
You do not just say pints of details here and there and leave people...
1. to imagine for themselves and guess what and where this piece of shit goes and whatnot...
2. to get confused and then get told they lack imagination
And I thought Ms. Gisala said that when one describes places... It should be in such an order that is wholistic and all.
From top-bottom, side-side or something like that.
After all, it is a descriptive paragraph.
And I get told it's wrong.
Why do I feel like bitching at my teacher over what one person just told me over YM?
I don't know. I'm more inclined to believe in my teacher in HS than over this person.
It's what I believe in.
Sure leave it to their imagination...
But I thought it was the writer's job and challenge to bring them to the place... Not let them figure it out
___
Maybe I'm being too much of a canon-nazi after all.
Can you blame me for being strict and conforming to the stories and such?
I only want solid facts and figures after all. I don't want to go and mislead people into thinking so and so...
It's not right. It's not fair...
___
I hate the person that I was. It was a one person I wish I would never have to meet ever again.
She's dead. I'm here. I don't see why we should keep dragging her back from the grave back to life.
I wanna get over her. I wanna get over this whole bullshit.
I wanna grow up and be someone else. A totally new person.
Clean slate and all.
But I know I have to try and do something. I don't want to die or feel bad forever because of my unresolved issues.
Of which I have a lot with other people...
___
I miss him.
I don't know. It's an I love him I miss him. I abhor him.
But I can't help but care...
I think I might have loved him but I don't know anymore.
He's hurt me but he doesn't know it.
He doesn't have to know.
Maybe I'll tell him how much I loved him once upon a time.
When I'm over him. When I'm over this pain.
___
I miss everyone. I miss everything.
I don't see why it had to all go away just like that.
It hurts.
Worse of all, I couldn't do anything to make it stop or stay the same.
I hate it when I don't listen to my own voice, my own gifts and such...
Because I'm scared it becomes the truth that just...isn't so right.
I'm scared of the stuff of my visions.
And I can't protect myself from it because I find myself victim and unable to work against it.
Why?
...I should start doing something about it.
I won't risk having someone or something go wrong ever again.
___
I want Byakko-chan home now.
There is nothing wrong with Mary Sues or Gary Stus. I have come across rather lovable ones as a matter of fact.
I have a grand and great number of these kinds of people in my stories. They're my cliches and molds. The usual kinds of guys and gals I often come up with... IMO, story makers have one. Like the usual style of stories, perspectives and techniques. It's a signature kind of thing.
Abe no Seimei from the famed Onmyouji movies was a very adorable Gary Stu'sh guy. I liked him. For a brief time I had a big school girl crush on him. ^^;
I just can't stand those I find really overdone.
___
All characters that have been done are part of the storymaker's psyche. They are manifestations of the storymaker's personality in said fragments given names and such. Indirect self-inserts of some kind. But... there is a kind of self-insert that I dare say is just plain annoying.
___
Tragedy is relative and true but...There is only so much that one can take. Coincidence cannot happen so many times or it gets really fucked up. It no longer comes as coincidence that way. It's called planned out or total inability to foresee and avoid considering the so many times stuff have happened already...
Stupid as I may find it... There are just some people who are destined for lives that are filled with drama.
But please, let us not try and do our best to contest the exagerratedly mushy stuff we find on TV.
And no, Ms. Math Teacher, I don't want more problem sets...
One can justify that we all have problems and stuff like that. Woe is me. Self-pity 101 but you know what? You're just a speck in the universe. What's the big fuss over making such a big issue over that? There are hundreds and thousands of people starving and all you can think of is make up and other kinds of shit. But ofcourse I can understand if you fuss over what is major and important to you.
And oh yeah... What you feel and think is important may not be important to everybody else. So it's all about relativity and stuff. But seriously... if it's a matter of life and death, oh well.
___
Characters are created for a purpose. IMO, if they have run out of purpose or are no longer needed, I would rather send them off to a lovely plane of existence or get rid of them completely... There is no use in keeping them around standing useless and pretty if they have no more reason to be.
Yes, they are still parts of me.
___
I'm moving on. Trying my best to be a better me.
But I don't feel the need to show or point it out because... I don't want to.
I'm lazy and besides, if you don't believe me... That's your perogative now.
But deep inside me, I know I have changed. Somethings... have come and gone. Major stuff.
Scars, new wounds... Stuff lingering and pinching me in the ass like stings and shit. Yeah. W00t.
___
No, it's not bullshit to do your research when you write.
As a writer you are accountable to your readers.
Your research serves as your foundation to your stories.
A strong, stable one.
Without it... You are floating on mere presumptions and lies.
I know it's fiction but goodness gracious... I don't think... It's right to just say I don't need to and shit like that because it's not real and all...
I don't know. It just doesn't work on me. That kind of logic just doesn't sound right to me.
It's just plain wrong...
___
Say I lack imagination and all. Okay. That's what you say.
But when you make descriptions... You drown people in the place.
When you write you narrate, you describe and bring people to the place.
You do not just say pints of details here and there and leave people...
1. to imagine for themselves and guess what and where this piece of shit goes and whatnot...
2. to get confused and then get told they lack imagination
And I thought Ms. Gisala said that when one describes places... It should be in such an order that is wholistic and all.
From top-bottom, side-side or something like that.
After all, it is a descriptive paragraph.
And I get told it's wrong.
Why do I feel like bitching at my teacher over what one person just told me over YM?
I don't know. I'm more inclined to believe in my teacher in HS than over this person.
It's what I believe in.
Sure leave it to their imagination...
But I thought it was the writer's job and challenge to bring them to the place... Not let them figure it out
___
Maybe I'm being too much of a canon-nazi after all.
Can you blame me for being strict and conforming to the stories and such?
I only want solid facts and figures after all. I don't want to go and mislead people into thinking so and so...
It's not right. It's not fair...
___
I hate the person that I was. It was a one person I wish I would never have to meet ever again.
She's dead. I'm here. I don't see why we should keep dragging her back from the grave back to life.
I wanna get over her. I wanna get over this whole bullshit.
I wanna grow up and be someone else. A totally new person.
Clean slate and all.
But I know I have to try and do something. I don't want to die or feel bad forever because of my unresolved issues.
Of which I have a lot with other people...
___
I miss him.
I don't know. It's an I love him I miss him. I abhor him.
But I can't help but care...
I think I might have loved him but I don't know anymore.
He's hurt me but he doesn't know it.
He doesn't have to know.
Maybe I'll tell him how much I loved him once upon a time.
When I'm over him. When I'm over this pain.
___
I miss everyone. I miss everything.
I don't see why it had to all go away just like that.
It hurts.
Worse of all, I couldn't do anything to make it stop or stay the same.
I hate it when I don't listen to my own voice, my own gifts and such...
Because I'm scared it becomes the truth that just...isn't so right.
I'm scared of the stuff of my visions.
And I can't protect myself from it because I find myself victim and unable to work against it.
Why?
...I should start doing something about it.
I won't risk having someone or something go wrong ever again.
___
I want Byakko-chan home now.