Ready Set....MORE RAMBLING!!!!!
Ok so its been a while since I've rambled...admit it you know you miss my crazy thought process of jumbled thought running through my head...I wont tell! Nah really though...lately I have been so stressed out...I mean I am just waiting for that day that Greg finaly comes home...44 more days...and he moves home with me!!! Very excited...I am looking for a new place for us to live and I think I found a pretty promising place...I no longer have a car so thats fun...I am having a real good friend over this weekend and looking forward to that...my roommate is going out of town and he's all like no parties...and I'm all like who am I gonna party with...so if you wanna party call me...if you dont have my number there is a reason for that...but seriously now...lately the stress has been piling on and on and on...like my grandmother is in the hospital...has been for two weeks then when she gets out she is going into a nursing home for a month then she is going to an assisted living place...I hate it...I mean she isn't healthy...and it scares the crap outta me...I am so close to my grandmother. when i heard she was in the hospital I totaly broke down and did something so stupid I am still kicking myself. Greg is all worried that I am leaving him because I told him that I was gonna be able to go visit him this weekend and it turns out that I am not able to but I can next weekend and he is getting all worried that I dont want to go and spend time with him but its not that at all...its really that I cant...I cant get the time off work this week and that sucks...I mean there is nothing that I would love more that to go and see my bf but I cant...and I do love him so thats not the issue...I got this letter from him today and I love getting letters from him because they are so sweet like he cant tell me how he really feels or how much he really loves me because he's got this macho thing to uphold and I totaly get that and its not even an issue but instead of saying those sweet melt my heart things he writes them down and sends them to me...I think that is so sweet...ahhhh this man is amazing...he is a bit on the wild side so I do have to calm him down a bit like just get him to respect people a little more...ya know the basics...but even if I never get that into him...as long as he still loves me more than anything he is perfect on my list...I dont know what it is...maybe the way he looks at me or holds me or listens to me or talks to me or everything about him...I mean I want to take care of him...he was sick a few weeks ago and I was so upset because I couldnt be there to take care of him...anywho...the roommate said that he got me a car...how wicked sweet is that...I mean a car...yeah!!! its a 1988 Delta 88...I am sooooo fricken excited to get it!!! I hope I get it by this weekend so that I can get my but around this weekend instead of sitting at home not doin a damn thing...so I am having Kenny over on saturday night just to hang out or whatever right and I feel bad because I know that greg wouldnt want me to be alone with Kenny but I dont know...gahhhh there we go again...me not knowing what to do...oh well though just a month and a half and I wont have these dilemas anymore cuz Greg with finaly be home...ok enough from me...how about you??