its been awhile...
wow its been a long time since i have updated...not much has changed...I am still living with my awesome roommate...I am still with Greg...and I am still very much in love with him...he is still not with me in the city though which sucks but I am still hangin in there...We are still moving to Oregon in November...even though Greg was talking about Cali yesterday I dont think so...I dont want to live in Cali and I am not going to...I know what I can do to change that though and I plan on doing just that...I am still workin my ass off and still partying on the weekends...its quite the life to live but someone has to live it...A major heatwave has hit the city here and I am dying...I am in a house with no AC it is 12:30 am and it is still like 90 degrees out...all the windows and doors are open and it is still hotter than hell...I hate it...I have decided that I am not living in this state any longer than I have to...I mean 30 below in the winter 100+ in the summer...I cant take this anymore...I have to be somewhere that I can go and get away from the heat like the beach...and by beach I mean one that is off the ocean...not a lake...cuz as beautiful as lakes can be there is nothing like the ocean...and you all know that I am so right on that!! Plus there are mountains out there so I get the best of both worlds and I get to be with Greg all the time and start a family...My roommate says he gives it six months out there before I call him and tell him that I cant take it anymore and that I want to come back...I told him that he is out of his mind...Greg and I might not last forever...nothing is for sure and as much as I love him and as much as he loves me there is no telling what the future holds but I told my roommate that I wont ever come back to MN to live once I am gone...I just couldn't do that to myself...wow I am rambling...but thats ok...I havent done that in awhile...Trish is mad at me...but honestly I dont care...I wasnt going to sit back and watch her hurt one of my friends again...so whatever...she will either get over it or not but either way I can live with or without her...I have enough people in my life that it wont hurt to have or not have one more...hmmm what else can I ramble about?? hmmmmmm I dont know...I mean I am really content in my life when I think about it...I have an absolutely wonderful boyfriend whom I love with everything I have and I have a wonderful roommate that is more like a big brother than anything...well kinda...I have a great job I have a not so cool car(and that is totaly litteraly btw no ac in my car) but its a way to get around...I have not so much money...lots of bills to pay...I have a phone that I really cant figure out...hmmmm I have finally learned how to stick up for myself...which feels awesome because I am done with being walked all over and thats way cool!!! ummmmm I would love to go back to school but the funds are low right now...maybe when we move I will but who knows...Greg has a daughter that is way cute...I havent ever met her but she looks like him from her pictures...I will be her step mom some day...that is kinda weird to think about and say...I mean I am only 20 and I am going to be a step mom...but thats ok I am looking forward to it...I cant wait to start a family...wow this has gotten to be really long so I am going to go and have another drink...you know get to the party part of my life and I might update in another month or so...maybe...all depends on how busy my life gets...