self analysis
I have just read my whole journal and I have come to the conclusion that I am just a pathetic piece of space. And that I was not always like this. And this is definately not who I want to be. I am so much better than that. And if you really knew me, you would know that because you would know my heart and my soul and the purity of it. And not the corrupted infected waste of space I have become.
Now. I broke up with my girlfriend because it was the right thing to do. Because she had to sort her problems, because I could not carry the weight of her broken heart. If she wants to run away from it again, and start another relationship and get someone else to fall in love with her and live a lie. And that person will get hurt, she will end up in the same place as she was with me. Except I dont know how many people will tolerate having your gf in your arms and as she sleeps calling out the name of her ex.
Enough. You want to know the truth? I still love you with every bit of my heart and I would do anything to have you back. But not until you let her go. Because I am seconds away from giving you my everything, to letting go everyone else so that you and I can have a future but for now you dont deserve that.
I am better than that and I will stop hurting.
Now. I broke up with my girlfriend because it was the right thing to do. Because she had to sort her problems, because I could not carry the weight of her broken heart. If she wants to run away from it again, and start another relationship and get someone else to fall in love with her and live a lie. And that person will get hurt, she will end up in the same place as she was with me. Except I dont know how many people will tolerate having your gf in your arms and as she sleeps calling out the name of her ex.
Enough. You want to know the truth? I still love you with every bit of my heart and I would do anything to have you back. But not until you let her go. Because I am seconds away from giving you my everything, to letting go everyone else so that you and I can have a future but for now you dont deserve that.
I am better than that and I will stop hurting.