Pasha
this is going to be a fairly short entry for no other reason than i have to go to bed because my sleeping habits suck and i need to lay in bed for about 8hrs in order to get some sort of sufficient sleep.
Rest In Peace
Chris Pasha
2/1/99
today sucked. all i could do was think about pasha and the effect his death had on everyone. it has been six years, six long years. it makes me feel so old while pasha is stuck in his youth. people think im crazy that i have a crossing the street complex, but now that zab got hit by a car he sort of understands. our school all but shut down the day after it happened. there were classes, but hardly anyone was in the classrooms and not much teaching went on. it was hard on everyone, this was our second automobile related death within a year of eachother. it hadnt even been a whole year. lori had died in the spring and pasha followed in the winter after. it was definitely hard for the entire school, not just friends of pasha. it made everyone think of lori and of anyone they had lost. thats what i felt like today, except i had to go to classes, i had to continue. neither pashas nor loris death stopped time, and they wont. so even though they have been saved from pain, we must move on, continue with time and hope that we can fulfill our lives before we too pass. it is amazing how much death can make you think. and not only about death, about life, about everything. i can only pray that God will watch out for me and let me live life to the fullest.
Now i lay me down to sleep
I pray thee Lord my soul to keep
To see me safely through the night
And wake me with thy morning light
And if i die before i wake
I pray thee Lord my soul to take.
Amen.
Rest In Peace
Chris Pasha
2/1/99
today sucked. all i could do was think about pasha and the effect his death had on everyone. it has been six years, six long years. it makes me feel so old while pasha is stuck in his youth. people think im crazy that i have a crossing the street complex, but now that zab got hit by a car he sort of understands. our school all but shut down the day after it happened. there were classes, but hardly anyone was in the classrooms and not much teaching went on. it was hard on everyone, this was our second automobile related death within a year of eachother. it hadnt even been a whole year. lori had died in the spring and pasha followed in the winter after. it was definitely hard for the entire school, not just friends of pasha. it made everyone think of lori and of anyone they had lost. thats what i felt like today, except i had to go to classes, i had to continue. neither pashas nor loris death stopped time, and they wont. so even though they have been saved from pain, we must move on, continue with time and hope that we can fulfill our lives before we too pass. it is amazing how much death can make you think. and not only about death, about life, about everything. i can only pray that God will watch out for me and let me live life to the fullest.
Now i lay me down to sleep
I pray thee Lord my soul to keep
To see me safely through the night
And wake me with thy morning light
And if i die before i wake
I pray thee Lord my soul to take.
Amen.