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Where were we;
oh right, we were going to do something, but did not. How do I feel about that? Sad, sort of upset. I feel like I was cermoniously shoved out of the loop and am watching backs turn like dominoes. I don't know what's going on, and no one seems to care enough to grab me by the hand and tell me the lines quickly before I shoved up on stage for my public apology; I'm sorry I don't know what I'm doing, I'm sorry my emotions run rampant, I'm sorry I want to curl up beneath my sheets, and I'm sorry it makes me want to cry. I still want you in my life, but as much as I am seemingly not doing anything to keep you here, you're not doing anything to stay.
Please understand that it wasn't my meaning to alienate myself, and that this realisation that its friends or family is a bit rough on the edges. I can't even say this to you openly, I have to beg through a letter and hope you receive it.
I hope you receive it.
oh right, we were going to do something, but did not. How do I feel about that? Sad, sort of upset. I feel like I was cermoniously shoved out of the loop and am watching backs turn like dominoes. I don't know what's going on, and no one seems to care enough to grab me by the hand and tell me the lines quickly before I shoved up on stage for my public apology; I'm sorry I don't know what I'm doing, I'm sorry my emotions run rampant, I'm sorry I want to curl up beneath my sheets, and I'm sorry it makes me want to cry. I still want you in my life, but as much as I am seemingly not doing anything to keep you here, you're not doing anything to stay.
Please understand that it wasn't my meaning to alienate myself, and that this realisation that its friends or family is a bit rough on the edges. I can't even say this to you openly, I have to beg through a letter and hope you receive it.
I hope you receive it.