Death
Like usual, I was subwaying to work this morning.
But unlike the other days, something out of the ordinary happened.
A few seconds after I got on a train, this ttc constable (or police if you want to conside them as one) came on. In a rushed manner, he excused himself while walking through the crowded train. That drew some people's attention towards him, while other waits impatiently for the train doors to close. Suddently he greeted another constable, "Did you find it?" Both of them started looking around, especially under people's seats. Now, pretty much all eyes were on them, and you can feel the curiousity in the atmosphere.
They walked out for a second, then came back in through another door. Then in a firm voice, one said, "Please lift your legs so we can take a look under your seats. Or tell us if you find any package."
Package? What package?
Did someone forget their lunch on the train?
Did someone leave their Christmas present under the seats?
Or... did someone leave a package with.. a bomb?
Perhaps I wasn't the only one that had that thought cross my mind. Immediately after that comment, people started leaving the train. Would that have helped? After all, if there was a bomb, and if it set off that moment, being outside the train would not have made a difference.
So I stood there... holding on to the pool and observating people's reactions. A different thought crossed my mind. Am I scared? Am I afraid to die? Now just imagine for a second that indeed there was a bomb, and your life will end in a matter of seconds, what would be your final thoughts? Will you be scared?
So I kept standing there, pondering about this question. I don't think I'm scared of dying... after all, I know where I will be. Yet even though I've always joked that it would be great to die now since I would not have to face exams, at that moment I was shocked to realize that I don't want to die, not yet, not this moment, not now. I am not scared of it, but I realized... deep down, there's just this one thing that I still need to do.
EDIT
Time: 12:57am
Mood: "Ging" tired
Eating: Chicken noodle soup - need to eat to stay awake =____=''
Doing: Working on paper *sigh*
Listening to: Hana Yori Dango OST =)
I want to get a 90+ on this paper! I mean, people have been telling me that he's an easy marker, and that they get really high on his papers. But with the amoung of effort I am putting into this (which is none), I would be lucky to pass. Oh well.. let's hope I aced that test, and don't need to worry about this 20% paper.
Time: 5:10am
Mood: X_______X
DONE!