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i have two concerns...
-money. i don't have a job lined up for the summer. that's not good.
-pratt. it's coming in just about 2 months. that's too soon. i'm not ready. :-(
the job situation is very depressing. i've been looking and dropping off applications, but i'm afraid no one will want to hire me because of the fact that i'm only going to be around for two months. i can't NOT have a job. it's not going to work...i need money for next year or next year is NOT going to happen. ugh ugh ugh. it makes me so freaking sick and nervous.
i think it's all setting in because of graduation this thursday. it's so soon. my life is going to change dramatically and i'm terrified. i'm so afraid of not making friends or not being good enough or smart enough. i have such terrible self-esteem and it doesn't help in times like these. i feel like i'm not going to be able to sleep until august 23rd when i leave.
i feel like i could explode. my mind is racing, i'm panicking, and i'm scared.
-money. i don't have a job lined up for the summer. that's not good.
-pratt. it's coming in just about 2 months. that's too soon. i'm not ready. :-(
the job situation is very depressing. i've been looking and dropping off applications, but i'm afraid no one will want to hire me because of the fact that i'm only going to be around for two months. i can't NOT have a job. it's not going to work...i need money for next year or next year is NOT going to happen. ugh ugh ugh. it makes me so freaking sick and nervous.
i think it's all setting in because of graduation this thursday. it's so soon. my life is going to change dramatically and i'm terrified. i'm so afraid of not making friends or not being good enough or smart enough. i have such terrible self-esteem and it doesn't help in times like these. i feel like i'm not going to be able to sleep until august 23rd when i leave.
i feel like i could explode. my mind is racing, i'm panicking, and i'm scared.