Don't you worry- there's still time
I'm tired of searching so long to find the good in someone. When all I ever see is the bad. I don't care how amazing the good side of someone is, the bad comes out. And the perfect can't do anything to stop that.
I'm tired of settling on things that I don't want. For temporary happiness, it's just not worth it anymore.
Nothing seems worth it.
People are people. And some people never change. Trust is a funny thing, somehow.
On a lighter note///
Downtown Albany is fucking beautiful. We went to this concert on the Hudson River, then drove around and looked at all the buildings.
They're all so old-fashioned.
I took a ton of pictures, but I forgot the cord. So I can't upload them. This computer is really slow anywho.
I like it here alot.
We're going to New York City on Saturday. That's going to be a humbling experience. I like LA, but I feel like NY is more for me. More down to earth and in your face
We're going on some tour to see the important stuff.
Then 5th Avenue!!!! That's what I'm happy about
My Dad was all like, "Yeah we're going to Neiman Marcus and Gucci and Prada" haha, If he were only serious.
Or if he knew how much he'd be spending.
Who cares? He'll still buy some stuff. Which is just as good.
And he made a reservation for Hard Rock Cafe NYC.
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I'm loving this trip. And when I come back, my brother will be in Boca. Which will now be his home.
I miss the Keys. Seeing all these boats today made me want to go fishing and ride waverunners.
I didn't go to the beach once this summer.
Brittney told me my 6th grade math teacher just had a baby.
AWH.
But, I'm going to go watch T.V. or something like that.
♥
PS. I finished HP. So fucking good.
PPS. I saw this older band called Little Feat today. With my Dad, he said that was reaaal rock-n-roll. And he said they had a screamer. Pft. Haha, it was nice though.
1.smoked a cigarette? Yes
2.smoked a cigar? No
3.kissed a member of the same sex? Not in a sexual way
4.crashed a friend's car? Can't say that I have
5.stolen a car? Twice ;)
6.been in love? I would like to think so
7.been dumped? yes.
8.shoplifted? Possibly
9.been fired? Nope
10.been in a fist fight? naw
11.snuck out of your house? yes
12.had feelings for someone who didnt have them back? Of course
13.been arrested? Yes, err, no
14.made out with a stranger? I actually don't think so
15.gone on a blind date? No, I wouldn't mind a date though
16.lied to a friend? Yes
17.had a crush on a teacher? YES YES YES
18.skipped school? Yes
19.slept with a co-worker? No
20.seen someone die? Not personally, no
21.been on a plane? Today as a matter of fact
22.thrown up in a bar? no
23.taken painkillers? Yes
24.love someone or miss someone right now? I do.
25.laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Who hasn't?
26.made a snow angel? Last winter
27.played dress up? Yes
28.cheated while playing a game? That's the only way to play
29.been lonely? Lots
30.fallen asleep at work/school? Plenty of times
31.used a fake id? No
32.felt an earthquake? Nope
33.touched a snake? Yes
34.ran a red light? I don't drive
35.been suspended from school? I had a work detail once!
36.had detention? 10+
37.been in a car accident? Yes
38.hated the way you look? Not anymore, but in the past, yes
39.witnessed a crime? yes
40.pole danced? Yeah, kinda
41.been lost? Yes
42.been to the opposite side of the country? CALI!
43.felt like dying? Yes
44.cried yourself to sleep? Thank you boys
45.played cops and robbers? yes
46.sang karaoke? yes
47.done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Oh yeah
48.laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Hell yeah
49.caught a snowflake on your tongue? mhmm
50.kissed in the rain? Not yet...
51.sing in the shower? All the time, baby
52.made love in a park? Negative
53.had a dream that you married someone? Yep
54. glued your hand to something? Haha, sadly, yes
55. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56.worn the opposite sex's clothes? Yep
57.been a cheerleader? No, haha
58. sat on a roof top? YES! I love that.
59. didn't take a shower for a week? Not that long
60.ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Always
61.played chicken? Yep
62.been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? More than once
63.been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yeah
64.broken a bone? My wrist
65.been easily amused? Always
66.laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67.mooned/flashed someone? Haha
68.cheated on a test? Yes
69.forgotten someone's name? Yes
70.slept naked? Actually, no
71.gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes
72.been kicked out of your house? no
73.blacked out from drinking? Nope
74.played a prank on someone? Yes
75.gone to a late night movie? Yes
76.made love to anything not human? Gross, fuck no.
77.failed a class? Nope
78.choked on something you're not supposed to eat? ahahhahahaha, no
79.played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Nah
80.cheated on a gf/bf? 7th grade
81.ate a whole package of oreos? that's the dumbest question
82.thrown strange objects? yes
83.felt like killing someone? Yeah
84.thought about running away? Oh yeah
85.ran away? yes
86.did drugs? I haven't
87.had detention and not attend it? I think so
88.yelled at parents? Yes
89.made parent cry? Yes
90.cried over someone? More than once
91.owned more than 5 sharpies? Yes
92.dated more than 1 person at once? Kind of. In 7th grade, long story...
93.have a dog? yes
94.have a cat? at my Dad's house
95.own an instrument? Acoustic
96.been in a band? hahhaha, nope
97.had more than 25 sodas in one day? Depends on the size, I drank 3 xtra large moutain dews once.
98.broken a cd? Yep
99.shot a gun? I love that
100.been on myspace for more than 5 hours? Not 5 hours straight
♥
I'm tired of settling on things that I don't want. For temporary happiness, it's just not worth it anymore.
Nothing seems worth it.
People are people. And some people never change. Trust is a funny thing, somehow.
On a lighter note///
Downtown Albany is fucking beautiful. We went to this concert on the Hudson River, then drove around and looked at all the buildings.
They're all so old-fashioned.
I took a ton of pictures, but I forgot the cord. So I can't upload them. This computer is really slow anywho.
I like it here alot.
We're going to New York City on Saturday. That's going to be a humbling experience. I like LA, but I feel like NY is more for me. More down to earth and in your face
We're going on some tour to see the important stuff.
Then 5th Avenue!!!! That's what I'm happy about
My Dad was all like, "Yeah we're going to Neiman Marcus and Gucci and Prada" haha, If he were only serious.
Or if he knew how much he'd be spending.
Who cares? He'll still buy some stuff. Which is just as good.
And he made a reservation for Hard Rock Cafe NYC.
@(*&#$@^(!^)#&!)(&#)!(&#&*!^$*%!(
I'm loving this trip. And when I come back, my brother will be in Boca. Which will now be his home.
I miss the Keys. Seeing all these boats today made me want to go fishing and ride waverunners.
I didn't go to the beach once this summer.
Brittney told me my 6th grade math teacher just had a baby.
AWH.
But, I'm going to go watch T.V. or something like that.
♥
PS. I finished HP. So fucking good.
PPS. I saw this older band called Little Feat today. With my Dad, he said that was reaaal rock-n-roll. And he said they had a screamer. Pft. Haha, it was nice though.
1.smoked a cigarette? Yes
2.smoked a cigar? No
3.kissed a member of the same sex? Not in a sexual way
4.crashed a friend's car? Can't say that I have
5.stolen a car? Twice ;)
6.been in love? I would like to think so
7.been dumped? yes.
8.shoplifted? Possibly
9.been fired? Nope
10.been in a fist fight? naw
11.snuck out of your house? yes
12.had feelings for someone who didnt have them back? Of course
13.been arrested? Yes, err, no
14.made out with a stranger? I actually don't think so
15.gone on a blind date? No, I wouldn't mind a date though
16.lied to a friend? Yes
17.had a crush on a teacher? YES YES YES
18.skipped school? Yes
19.slept with a co-worker? No
20.seen someone die? Not personally, no
21.been on a plane? Today as a matter of fact
22.thrown up in a bar? no
23.taken painkillers? Yes
24.love someone or miss someone right now? I do.
25.laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Who hasn't?
26.made a snow angel? Last winter
27.played dress up? Yes
28.cheated while playing a game? That's the only way to play
29.been lonely? Lots
30.fallen asleep at work/school? Plenty of times
31.used a fake id? No
32.felt an earthquake? Nope
33.touched a snake? Yes
34.ran a red light? I don't drive
35.been suspended from school? I had a work detail once!
36.had detention? 10+
37.been in a car accident? Yes
38.hated the way you look? Not anymore, but in the past, yes
39.witnessed a crime? yes
40.pole danced? Yeah, kinda
41.been lost? Yes
42.been to the opposite side of the country? CALI!
43.felt like dying? Yes
44.cried yourself to sleep? Thank you boys
45.played cops and robbers? yes
46.sang karaoke? yes
47.done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Oh yeah
48.laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Hell yeah
49.caught a snowflake on your tongue? mhmm
50.kissed in the rain? Not yet...
51.sing in the shower? All the time, baby
52.made love in a park? Negative
53.had a dream that you married someone? Yep
54. glued your hand to something? Haha, sadly, yes
55. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56.worn the opposite sex's clothes? Yep
57.been a cheerleader? No, haha
58. sat on a roof top? YES! I love that.
59. didn't take a shower for a week? Not that long
60.ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Always
61.played chicken? Yep
62.been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? More than once
63.been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yeah
64.broken a bone? My wrist
65.been easily amused? Always
66.laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67.mooned/flashed someone? Haha
68.cheated on a test? Yes
69.forgotten someone's name? Yes
70.slept naked? Actually, no
71.gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes
72.been kicked out of your house? no
73.blacked out from drinking? Nope
74.played a prank on someone? Yes
75.gone to a late night movie? Yes
76.made love to anything not human? Gross, fuck no.
77.failed a class? Nope
78.choked on something you're not supposed to eat? ahahhahahaha, no
79.played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Nah
80.cheated on a gf/bf? 7th grade
81.ate a whole package of oreos? that's the dumbest question
82.thrown strange objects? yes
83.felt like killing someone? Yeah
84.thought about running away? Oh yeah
85.ran away? yes
86.did drugs? I haven't
87.had detention and not attend it? I think so
88.yelled at parents? Yes
89.made parent cry? Yes
90.cried over someone? More than once
91.owned more than 5 sharpies? Yes
92.dated more than 1 person at once? Kind of. In 7th grade, long story...
93.have a dog? yes
94.have a cat? at my Dad's house
95.own an instrument? Acoustic
96.been in a band? hahhaha, nope
97.had more than 25 sodas in one day? Depends on the size, I drank 3 xtra large moutain dews once.
98.broken a cd? Yep
99.shot a gun? I love that
100.been on myspace for more than 5 hours? Not 5 hours straight
♥