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I weigh 140 pounds. The weight doesn't want to come off. Yesterday I ate almost nothing and I only lost about four ounces. It is really discouraging but I need to very thin. It is my obsession. Whenever I hang out with my friend usually on Mondays, it is becoming mandatory I take laxatives right after. I feel huge. My legs hurt from walking so much and doing the mini stepper. It is worth it though to try to block any weight gain. I saw a documentary on you tube called "the truth about being a size zero" or something like that. It was about a curvy actress or model who.wants to find out what people go through to be a size zero. She is almost forcing herself to be anorexic. Fifty percent of it is her saying she us so hungry, tired and cranky from not eating. The message was supposed to be "don't do this to yourself" but it just made me think how size zero people are hungry just like everyone else but they're not giving into it. If they refuse to give in, couldn't anyone if they were really determined and focused.