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I don't know what is going on with the site or maybe it id must my cell phone preventing me from doing entries or notes but I hope it goes back to normal. I love thus site so much and my friends here. I miss the support I got here and giving other people support. Anyway, I weigh 138 pounds now. I got hurt bad by the potato salad fiasco. I have had to pound myself to the ground and go to bed hungry just to get this close to where I was before. Oh and take laxatives,lots of laxatives. Don't eat potato salad. It can literally put five to ten pounds on you overnight or maybe it just happened to me because my body is fucked up. Anyway, I got to know my brothers new counselor a little better. Turns out he has anxiety issues. I guess it was nasty of me to judge him at first sight. When he was here today, there was the other counselor here to ace as a buffer between us but I'm scared if it is me and him. This could be potentially awkward. I have never been around someone else with anxiety in real life. If we are both uncomfortable in social situations and stuff, this could be weird. The guy I liked fixed the faucet I had problems with in the bathroom. He is a good person. I wish I wasn't so messed up and fat, maybe I would still have hope I wouldn't always be alone.